My Sendoff To Those I Could've Known

First song I've written in a while.

I have all this pain bottled up
And I'm wanting to uncork it
But I'll just put it away
And leave my burdens unsorted
And you know how I feel
But I won't let you in
Everyone knows how I feel
But I won't let them in

And if I could just trust someone
Maybe I would be fine

I'm sitting here watching my blood boil
Rotting away
Knowing you could help me find my way
I'm sitting here watching my wounds
Pour out to the ground
Thinking I'm better off this way

All my hurt gathers up in my mind
If I could just break through
And release, and unwind
Maybe I could start anew
But you know I can never let it out
That just isn't my style
Maybe things will just sort themselves out
In a little while

And if I could just trust someone
Maybe I would be fine

I'm sitting here watching my blood boil
Rotting away
Knowing you could help me find my way
I'm sitting here watching my wounds
Pour out to the ground
Thinking I'm better off this way

Now I'm sitting here with this gun to my head
And these pills in my hand
And we all know where this will end
If only I trusted
Someone at all
I wouldn't be facing this bitter end

I'm sitting here watching my blood boil
Rotting away
Knowing you could help me find my way
I'm sitting here watching my wounds
Pour out to the ground
Thinking I'm better off this way